Is this really a meme? Tell me about your day!

[auntmo9]

Stolen from letsgokomets (okay, not really stolen, because the rules say I had to do it...and I am so all about following the rules....)

I'm running a test to see who's reading my posts. So, if you read this, leave me a one-word comment about your day that starts with the third letter of your LJ USERNAME. Only one word please. Then re-post so I can leave a word for you. Don't just post a word and not copy - that's not as much fun!

Comments

[princess-aleera.livejournal.com]

No, interesting is actually a good word. I had all my deadlines today, for everything I should've submitted last term. (mitigating circumstances, etc. etc.) So I worked 'till my eyes bled today, and stayed up 21 hours straight to get the shit done, and ended up submitting the wrong draft of my essays anyway. So stressing about that, and the fact that I've only done half my notebook because I don't actually know what/how to do for the rest (was ill lots of the time, and mentally absent the rest, hurr), so I had a talk with my personal tutor.

Who promptly chided me for stressing, told me she'd speak to my tutors and let them know I should have another tutorial meeting, and then commanded me to go straight home to bed. She actually refused to take my assignments, and said I had to submit them in two days so I would stress down a bit. XDD

My tutors, man. Holy shit they are awesome.

[auntmo9.livejournal.com]

*shakes head and looks around for mom voice again*

Listen to your awesome tutors, okay? Sleep and not stressing are good things.*hugs*

[princess-aleera.livejournal.com]

I've been given a really late submission date, okay. I was a bit desperate to get it all done, because I don't want to seem like a slacker who uses the extra time just to chill 'round.

I keep forgetting that I'ts not ACTUALLY expected of me to become 100% alright just three months after a friend's death.

*hugs you back and curls up on your lap*

[auntmo9.livejournal.com]

I don't think anyone, including your tutors and teachers think you are a slacker.I think if they did, the conversation would have been much different. The pressure is more from yourself than anywhere
else,and I totally get that.

And you're right; you don't have to be 100% alright yet.

[princess-aleera.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I agree. She very clearly told me that no one thinks I'm a slacker, though a couple of them are afraid I'll get burned out. Which is a cute thought, that they care. And she asked why I hadn't told them about my notebook problems, and I said that really, it's my problem isn't it? Because I didn't always pay attention in the class before Melanie either. And she was like "no, no acctually this is our problem." And I was like O.o

So yeah. It's strange. I'm so used to my Mom being the person to push me on, so when she's not here I guess I've started... overcompensating? So I won't be thrown off the course. An odd thought, since I'm quite lazy. O.o

(How are you holding up these ays anyway, honey? <3 )

[auntmo9.livejournal.com]

*whistles innocently while shuffling back and forth*

Yeah, I guess I shouldn't threaten to pull out the mom voice when I am working a ton myself. But we are trying to start up new homes right now and I am getting at least eight hours of sleep.

I am in a limbo in a lot of ways right now. I feel like I have been able to write a little again, and connect, or re-connect with some people again. But others things feel like they are on hold, and I can't really put a finger on what those are...but they are there,somehwere.

[princess-aleera.livejournal.com]

Hahaha, we're all hypocrites. *pets*

And I do get eight-ten hours of sleep, I just... have a tendency to be up for 16-20 hours BEFORE I get those hours of sleep. So I'm sensing that's where the problem lies. XD

Hm. well, it's good to hear that you seem to be moving forward a little. Stuff like this takes an annoyingly long time to fix, and sometimes we can't do it ourselves. If you start feeling like everything's too much and just spinning down, I suggest you contact someone. I've gotten an incredible amount of help from my psychologist over the last four weeks- one month has done more than six years in my own brain managed. *hugs*

[auntmo9.livejournal.com]

(I know I'm not )